Updated.

It's Tuesday, May 12 and not much is going on here at work. I mean exactly that--not much. Work is slowing down and although I have a few things to keep me busy, this soon will dry out as well. What's to blame? The economy of course... No, I don't buy it. My philosophy will have me believe that I made this happen because reality is based on my observations. But how did I make this happen? Why would I want to look down the possibility of layoffs? I don't and I'm arranging different projects to keep me busy. But I'm very unmotivated right now.
My health is not good and I haven't seen a doctor. Frankly, I'm afraid that the doctor will give me bad news so I'd rather stick my head in the sand rather than face him.
Is all this due to stress? Possibly, I'd like to think that it is because this stress will all soon dissolve one way or another. The other thing that keeps my keyed up is Max. I'm always afraid that something is going to happen to Max and the thought of that gives me a stomach ache. I understand that this is normal but I still can't help what I feel.
I have to pull myself together and do it quickly because I feel like decision makers at my job are making decisions that won't favor me and this is not a market I want to find a job in.
I'm concentrating on writing and gardening, and apparently stress.